An open letter to Lord Voldemort

Dear Lord Voldemort,

You may fail to recall this incident, but I do not. In fact, I cherish it with a sprinkle of pepper and salt everyday. Your lame attempts to teach arithmetic to your kid, and his replying that 1 and 1 make 11 still brings a lot of amusement to my peers and colleagues.

You may wonder why I chose to call you Voldemort. Don't! Because, believe it or not, your demeanour and spirit lie akin to the Dark Lord in J. K. Rowling's creation of the Harry Potter series of books. You consider disagreement as a personal threat, and your habit of throwing the weight where it isn't even necessary is a sharp indicator in that direction. Pardon me, if I call you a Bolshevik as well.

I do not know why, but it seems to me that you breathe and live under the belief that the world needs a messiah or a saviour, all the time. Did you misinterpret the following message from the Bhagavad Geeta? Did you see yourself as a mighty saviour yielding the Sudarshan Chakra?

यदा यदा हि धर्मस्य ग्लानिर्भवति भारत ।
अभ्युत्थानमधर्मस्य तदात्मानं सृजाम्यहम् ||
परित्राणाय साधूनां विनाशाय च दुष्कृताम् ।
धर्मसंस्थापनार्थाय सम्भवामि युगे युगे||

"Mujhe change chaahiye!" is and has been your motto! Yes, change is good, if for the better. But, still better is improvement! Improvement comes from knowing a system, by understanding what might have gone through the minds of the people while they framed the "holy constitution", rather than sheer, abrupt and unprepared change. What was riding on your mind? Satan? Couldn't you understand, that changing a "system" or an ecology might alleviate the problems, but would bring in a new set of issues that you might be hitherto unaware of? If you know what the problems were, couldn't you lead the people to trust the system and improvise it? But no, your evil ego overcame the sheer common sense that one might expect from a person of your stature.

It is amazing that you trusted a set of people who first preached on your behalf that you were a messiah, a leader of fresh change. The same set of people used your name, and threatened various units in the campus. The same set of people were found abusing you and kicking walls and windows in the campus. I named them the "Smart Munnas", but if I were to use a Harry Potter simile, they were the "death eaters", with no life / opinion of their own, but feeding on the ideas and happinesses of other people.

There were also a small set of people who wanted the people to benefit. Call them the Mensheviks if you will, but they were ready to cooperate for the sake of the system, with YOU. But you saw them as a threat.

You lay your belief on them, who would merely seem to ejaculate on your "holy" command. You never stayed inside the endroit and you think you knew all the people? You didn't. But instead you wanted to threaten all the people who wanted to help and improvise.

People asked mysterious questions during the various gatherings, didn't they? You think, we didn't understand? You were wrong! You lay your belief on those, who favoured you at one time, but forged signatures to vote against you. You think, we didn't know? You were wrong! Each and every time, the advice from a small group of us was to avoid clashing against the big rock. But, they didn't understand. Did you, consider our position?

You threw away the most hardworking guy away from the endroit, the one who used to work 12 hours a day, without seeking any extra remuneration? Our only understanding was that you were overcome by your Satanic ego, to prove that you were the boss and trying to "save" the endroit. The hardworking guy, went away and so did the practices of systematic working. Total disarray was visible.

You never, reconsidered your decision did you? Perhaps, you would, when you grow old and feeble, Voldie.

Our only hope was that you left your ego, and saw reason.

Sincerely and yours truly.

चुप्पी

आज खुश तो बहुत होगे तुम ! लो चुप्पी ठान ली मैंने ! तुम्हारे रोज रोज के ताने, तुम्हारे रोज रोज के शक़।  तुम्हारे हर बात में यह ठहराना कि मैं हर मायने में गौण हूँ। त्रस्त हूँ पर फिर भी चुप हूँ। ह्रदय पे बोझ है तो क्या हुआ? चेहरे पे झुर्रियाँ बढ़ रही है तो क्या हुआ ? दिन-ब-दिन सिर के बाल सफ़ेद हो रहें हैं तो क्या हुआ? तुम्हारी ख़ुशी तो जरूरी है ना?

तुम्हारी बात को ठुकराई तो तुम बात करना बंद कर दोगे, खाना नहीं खाओगे, ताने मारोगे! जानते हो, तुमसे बात करने से पहले चिंता होती है कि आज कौन कौन सी गालियाँ सुनने को मिलेंगी? तुमसे बात करने से पहले अपने ह्रदय को पुख्ता कर लेना होता है कि कहीं तुम्हारी चुभने वाली बातें मेरे कोमल मन को चोटित न कर दे। तुम्हे मुझे चोटित कर कौन सी ख़ुशी मिलती है?

किसी को एक्सपीरियंस या तजुर्बा होने पर वो सही नहीं हो जाता।  तजुर्बा उन लोगों या समाजों तक सीमित होतीं हैं जिनसे तुमने चर्चा या विचारों का आदान प्रदान किया हो।  किसी बंद कमरे में बैठकर लोगों के सम्बन्ध में अंधी राय बना लेना और उसी राय पर विश्वास करने लगना मात्र बेवकूफी कि निशानी है।  तुम बार बार कहते हो न "मुझे थर्टी इयर्स का एक्सपीरियंस है"! यह मात्र एक छलावा है जिसमें तुमने अपने आप को फंसा लिया है।  ऐसी बातें सिर्फ हास्यात्मक कार्यक्रमों तक ही सीमित होती हैं।

कभी पतंग को उड़ाया है तुमने? जब कोई पतंग उड़ती है तो उसकी डोर को पहले खींचते हैं, फिर ढील देते हैं। ऐसा करते करते पतंग उड़ने लगता है।  लेकिन इंसान पतंग नहीं होते।  ऐसा करने से इंसान उड़ता नहीं, कन्फ्यूज़ ज्यादा हो जाता है।

चिड़िया उड़ का खेल

याद है बचपन में वो खेल हुआ करता था - चिड़िया उड़? किस तरह किसी खिलाडी के द्वारा गलती करने पर उसे मार पड़ती थी? उस मार से तो चलो आदमी बच के निकल भी जाए, तुम्हारी चुभने वाली बातों के मार से कौन बचेगा या बचाएगा। कुछ कहने लगेंगे तो फिर वही खाना बंद, बातें बंद| लो अब अमूल मक्खन कि मालिश करो चार दिन तक! झूठी माफ़ी भी मांगो, चाहे गलती की हो या नहीं!

इसीलिए अब मैंने चुप्पी साध ली। खुश रहो तुम! काश कि तुम ऐसे ही खुशियां मनाते रहो, मुझे दुःख पहुंचाते रहो, और मेरे मुँह से आह तक न निकले! एक जीवित लाश में परिवर्तित कर दिया है तुमने! मुबारक हो! एक नयी कठपुतली मुबारक हो!

-- निशा 

Goodbyes and Hellos - 2013

My year began with a goodbye to my Hall of Residence Four at IIT Kanpur. I had stayed there for eight long years and more. I definitely had my share of learnings, in  terms of building a progressive society, motivating people and more. I made good friends too, from the very famous Tony Jacob to the very humble Vivek Mehta. It has been a privilege knowing them. I might have left the Hall, but its memories remain etched in my mind. 

My supervisor Dr. Bharat Lohani insisted that I take the opportunity to deliver an invited lecture at Dr. Babasaheb Marathwada University Aurangabad. The visit to Aurangabad was a lesson in how humble beginnings might lead to great achievements. Dr. Suresh Mehrotra's amazingly inspirational way of motivating people left me astounded. At the same time, meeting Dr. Pravin Yannawar, Dr. Ramesh Manza and Dr. Bharti Gawali Rokade were indicators that I should put in more efforts in my research work and publications. 

MGM's Jawaharlal Nehru Engineering College, Aurangabad

My visit to Aurangabad and a probing question by Dr. Suresh Mehrotra - "If all good people went to `good' places, who will come to the place which are not `good'?" motivated me to start a conversation with a college of Aurangabad. I came for a visit to Jawaharlal Nehru Engineering College and was floored by the welcoming nature of the Principal Dr. Sudhir Deshmukh, his motivated talks and willingness to develop the college further into an institute of national repute. My meetings with Dr. Sanjay Harke, Dr. Ravindra Deshmukh and Dr. Abhay Kulkarni were enlightening. I was especially impressed by the infrastructure developed by MGM - IBT, where Dr. Sanjay Harke is the Director.

With Shitla Tripathi ji

With Ram Kewal Maurya ji

I finally had a chance to take a degree at the convocation, the previous one's being either mailed to my place of residence, or being brought in by a third person. Instead of partying around, I chose to spend time with Shitla Prasad Tripathi ji and Ram Kewal Maurya ji. If I have gained a lot from my fellow research workers, I have also learnt a lot from Tripathi ji and Maurya ji. For each and every technical problem of mine. They were a great help.


Remember Narayan dada, the one about whom I talked about in my blog last year? I saw him frail and shaking. When I saw him, he got down from the cycle, and told me that he was diagnosed with a cancerous growth in his throat. It was surprising that all through his trauma, he had been looking for me for support, and people had been telling him that I had left the campus. I talked about his condition to the residents of Hall Four and most of them went to see him. Some even called him from outside the campus.

A scene at the CC Canteen @ IITK

The month of August began with a goodbye, with me bidding adieu to the city I spent nine precious years in, Kanpur. There were small meetings with Prof. Onkar Dikshit, the person who supported me a lot, morally and financially, and my thesis supervisor Dr. Bharat Lohani. Dr. Nandini Nilakantan also invited me for a luncheon at the Campus Restaurant. 

Arun Nishad, your help for packing up my things was one of the greatest helps that I would remember. On the day of bidding goodbye to the campus, it was raining, and I, perhaps inspired by the clouds, shed a tear or two, in the moments of loneliness that I found on the railway platform. I was en route to Chennai then, and met a lady Tarzan during the journey! 

The next few days went away like a breeze, and I entered Aurangabad. A small and dusty city yet to learn the values of maintenance and cleanliness, but yet consisted of people with big hearts. Sachin Deshmukh helped me to find a place of stay, and Prahlad Pawar ji was kind enough to rent me the place. 

I taught two courses this year. Teaching mathematics to the students with no mathematical background was one of the challenges that I took. The results would say if I was successful, which are yet to come as I write this document. 

The end of year enlightened me with an emergent thought. The expression of "Independence" is expected to arrive with a feeling of an exclamation mark, but instead in many of us, it exists with a question mark in terms of daily life - common feelings like hunger, love, sadness, sleep, thought are well affected by this question mark.

With a desire that you are able to convert this question mark into an exclamation in the coming days, I wish you a very happy new year.

हिंदी रूपांतर 

भारतीय प्रौद्योगिकी संस्थान के चतुर्थ छात्रावास को अलविदा कहने से मेरा यह वर्ष शुरू हुआ।  अनेकों झगड़े, रात भर का जागना और दोस्ती इन्ही सब की यादें समेटकर मैंने हॉल ४ को अलविदा कहा। हॉल ४ में रहने के दौरान अनेकों से मेरा परिचय हुआ जैसे विख्यात टोनी जेकब और विनयशील विवेक मेहता।  हॉल ४ से मैंने कई चीज़ें सीखीं और आशा है कि इन सीखों को मैं अपने जीवन में उतार पाऊंगा।

मेरे पी एच डी के मार्गदर्शक डॉ भारत लोहनी ने मुझे डॉ बाबासाहेब आंबेडकर विद्यापीठ में जाकर व्याख्यान देने के लिए प्रेरित किया। यहाँ मैं प्रो सुरेश मेहरोत्रा से मिला। डॉ प्रवीण यन्नावर, डॉ रमेश मंझा और डॉ भारती रोकड़े से मिलकर ऐसा लगा कि मुझे अपने शोध कार्य में और अधिक मेहनत करनी चाहिए।

इस व्याख्यान के वजह से मेरी बातचीत औरंगाबाद के एक महाविद्यालय से होने लगी। डॉ सुरेश मेहरोत्रा ने पूछा कि " यदि हर अच्छा व्यक्ति "अच्छी" जगह पर जाए, तो हमारे यहाँ कौन आएगा?" अतः मैं पुनः औरंगाबाद आया। यहाँ, जवाहरलाल नेहरू इंजीनियरिंग कॉलेज के प्रधानाचार्य डॉ सुधीर देशमुख से मिलकर बहुत अच्छा लगा।  वे इस महाविद्यालय को राष्ट्रीय स्तर के प्रसिद्ध शिक्षण संस्थानों कि गिनती में लाना चाहते थे।  इसके अतिरिक्त मैंने डॉ संजय हर्के, डॉ रविन्द्र देशमुख एवं डॉ अभय कुलकर्णी से भी मुलाकात कि।  जैवविज्ञानं और प्रौद्योगिकी संस्थान के आधुनिक प्रयोगशालाएं और कम्प्यूटेशनल शक्ति देखकर मैं दंग रह गया।  अतः मैंने जवाहरलाल नेहरू इंजीनियरिंग कॉलेज कि ठानी।

आखिर वो वेला आ ही गयी जब मैंने किसी दीक्षांत समारोह में भाग लिया।  इससे पूर्व मेरे समस्त उपाधियों को में व्ययक्तिक तौर पर ले नहीं पाया था।  समारोह के उपरांत जहां लोग होटलों में जाकर खाना खाने कि योजना बना रहे थे, में शीतला प्रसाद त्रिपाठी जी और राम केवल मौर्या जी के साथ फ़ोटो खिचवा रहा था।

आपको नारायण दादा के बारे में याद है? उनके बारे में पिछले वर्ष मैंने लिखा था।  उनको मैंने बहुत कमज़ोर और शिथिल रूप में देखा। पूछने पर पता चला कि उन्हें वैद्य ने बताया है कि उन्हें कर्क रोग है।  उनका एक बार शल्य चिकित्सा हो चुका था।  उन्होंने बताया कि वे मेरे बारे में पूछते रहे और लोग उनको बताते रहे कि मैं आई आई टी परिसर छोड़कर चला गया हूँ।  मेरे पूर्व छात्रावास के लोगो को बताने पर कई उनसे परिसर के हेल्थ सेंटर में मिलने गए और उन्हें ढांढस बधाई।

अगस्त का महीना मेरे लिए कठिन रहा। जिस परिसर में मैंने ९ वर्ष बिताये उसे विदा कहने का समय आ गया था।  विदा लेने से पूर्व, प्रोफेसर ओंकार दीक्षित, जिन्होंने मुझे कई बार धैर्य बंधाई और आर्थिक सहायता भी दी, के आशीष वचन प्राप्त करने आवश्यक थे।  इसी के साथ मेरे पी एच डी के मार्गदर्शक डॉ भारत लोहनी से भी मार्गदर्शन प्राप्त किये।  डॉ नन्दिनी नीलकंठन ने भी मुझे मध्यान्ह भोज के लिए आमंत्रित किया।

श्री अरुण निषाद ने मेरे सामान को समेटने में जितनी मदद की उसकी प्रशंशा करने के लिए मेरे पास शब्द कम हैं।  आई आई टी परिसर को विदा कहने के दिन वर्षा हो रही थी, और सम्भवतः बादलों से प्रेरित होकर, रेलवे प्लेटफार्म के अकेलेपन में, मेरे चक्षुओं से दो आंसू छलक पड़े। मैं चेन्नई की ओर अग्रसर था और रास्ते में एक लेडी टार्ज़न से मुलाकात भी हुई!

अगले कुछ दिन बड़ी तेज़ी से बीत गए और में औरंगाबाद में कदम रखा। यह एक धूल भरा शहर है, परन्तु यहाँ के लोगों के ह्रदय विशाल हैं।  सचिन देखमुख ने मुझे एक रहने का स्थान ढूंढ़ने में मदद कि, और श्री प्रह्लाद पवार जी ने अपने घर को मुझे किराए पर दिया।

इस वर्ष मैंने दो कोर्स पढ़ाये। जैव विज्ञान के छात्रों को गणित पढ़ाना शायद कठिन था। मैंने अच्छा पढ़ाया या नहीं, यह तो परिणाम आने के पश्चात ही पता चलेगा!

वर्ष २०१३ के अंत में एक दुर्दान्त विचार मेरे मन में कौंधा।  यह कि हम कहते हैं कि हम स्वतंत्र है, पर अधिकतर भारतीयों के लिए स्वतंत्रता छद्मवेश में परतंत्रता का ही नाम है, चाहे वो सोच, विचार, निद्रा, क्षुधा, प्रेम, अनुराग कुछ भी हो। इसीलिए स्वतंत्रता एक विस्मयादिबोधक चिन्ह के साथ नहीं वरन एक प्रश्नवाचक चिन्ह के साथ हमारे मन में उत्पन्न होता है।

वेद कहते हैं "तमसो मां ज्योतिर्गमय" । इसी प्रेरणा के साथ कि आप इस छद्मवेशी परतंत्रता को वास्तविक स्वतंत्रता में रुपान्वित कर सकें और प्रश्नवाचक चिन्ह को विस्मयद्बोधक चिन्ह में बदल सकें, मैं आपको नव वर्ष कि शुभकामनायें देता हूँ।  

कैफियत

कभी दिल्ली के चौड़े रास्तों के बीच उगते पौधों को देखा है? गुज़रते वाहनों के धूल और धुएं से लथपथ, शिथिल, निर्जीव, काहिल और न जाने क्या क्या हो जातीं हैं। किसी उगते पौधे को स्वास्थ्य होने के लिए खुली हवा, प्यार, पर्याप्त मात्र में खाद आदि कि आवश्यकता होती है।  दिल्ली ही क्यों किसी भी शहर में रास्तों के दोनों तरफ या बीच में उगते हुए पौधों कि ऐसी ही दशा होती है।

ऐसा प्रतीत होता है कि मैं कोई ऐसा ही पौधा हूँ। धूल और धूएं से काहिल, शिथिल। धूल शायद तुम्हारे चिंतन कि, और धुँआ तुम्हारे मन के निष्क्रिय कारखाने की।  धुँआ शायद तुम्हारे किंकर्त्तव्यविमूढ़ता कि भी है।  चतुर्दिशाओं के बाजे गाजे और तुम्हारे मन के काल्पनिक धूम धडाके।  कभी किसी का बाजा बज उठता है और खुल जातीं हैं तुम्हारे  कल्पनाओं का विशाल भण्डार!  उन घटनाओं कि कल्पना करने लगते हो जो वास्तव में होते ही नहीं।  ऊपर से तुम उन काल्पनिक चरित्रों, पात्रों, और घटनाओं पर विश्वास करने लगते हो।

हर किसी के विश्वास, आशा उसके अपने होते हैं।  उन विश्वास और आशाओं में सबको लपेटा नहीं जा सकता।  जब कोई लिपटता नहीं तो उसे यह भी नहीं कहा जा सकता कि वो धोखेबाज़ है! धोखा तो तब होता, जब कभी कोई इस बात का वाद करता कि कुछ भी हो जाए, वो उसके वास्तव और तुम्हारे कृत्रिम जगत में कोई अंतर नहीं रखेगा।

वास्तव क्या है और कृत्रिम क्या है, इसके सम्बन्ध में बहुत अलग अलग राय पंडितों ने दी है। कभी यह नहीं कहा जा सकता है मेरा वास्तव सत्य है और तुम्हारा वास्तव कृत्रिम।  कभी यह नहीं कहा जा सकता कि तुम्हारा मानना सत्य है और मेरी सोच गलत। चिरकाल से सनातन धर्म के संस्कार खुली विचारधारा के हैं।  कभी नहीं कहते कि यह मना है, वो मना है।  हाँ! अनेक वस्तुओं, पदार्थों के गुणों कि चर्चा अवश्य पाये गए हैं। यह मना है, वो मना है ऐसा मात्र निम्न स्तरीय विचारधारा के समाजों का परिचायक है।  बंद घरों या कमरों में रहने से विचार कभी खुले नहीं हो सकते।

तुम बारम्बार कहते हो यह न करो, वो न करो। कभी कभी तो तेज़ सांसें चलने पर भी तुम्हारे सवाल खड़े हो जाते हैं।  हो सकता है मेरी सांसें तेज़ ही चलती हों! या फिर हो सकता है कि वर्जिश का कार्यक्रम चल रहा हो। कुछ भी हो, कैसा भी हो, कैफियत मांगने लगते हो! ऐसे कैफ़ियतों कि आशाओं से बारम्बार घायल क्यों करते हो? एक बार में ही बोल दो कि मर जाओ!  जान छूटे तुम्हारी! और मेरी भी!

--निशा

कांचा चीन्हा या कांच के सपने ?

तुम कहते हो मैं आज़ाद हूँ, एक पंछी कि तरह, पर जब भी उड़ने कि कोशिश की तुमने तो मेरे पर ही काट लिए! न! वह पर मेरे पीठ पर नहीं उगे थे।  वह तो मेरे ह्रदय में थे, अब सोचो काट दिए तो कितना दर्द हुआ होगा।  अरे, तुम बड़े होकर दिल से खेलते हो? मैं तो सोचता था कि यह सिर्फ कमीनों का काम है!

कोई कमीना कर्म से होता है, कोई सोच से।  पर मेरे पर काटने का जो कमीनापन तुमने किया वह लाजवाब है। पहले कहा "उड़! चिड़िया उड़!" फिर जब चिड़िया उडी तो कुशब्दों के वाण छोड़ दिए।  नन्ही चिड़िया अब क्या करे? वो कहते हैं न अंग्रेजी में "बैक टू स्क्वायर वन!", वही हाल किया।  अरे यही सब करना था तो पहले बता देते?

यह जो चिड़िया उड़ वाला खेल होता है न, बड़ा निराला है।  कोई गलती करता है तो मार खानी पड़ती है।  पर कुछ कलाकारी से उससे बच भी सकते हैं।  ह्रदय को थप्पड़ पड़ने पे बचने कि उम्मीदें कम रहती हैं।  पर यह तुम्हे कौन समझाए? तुम अपने अलावा किसी के सम्बंध में नहीं सोचते, यह तो मुझे अब जा के पता चला है!

भारत देश में अनेको कुसंस्कार म्लेच्छ जातियों द्वारा लाया गया है। वो तो सुधर गए हमें देखकर! पर हम ने उनकी देखा-देखी करनी शुरू कर दी। और तुमने तो पराकाष्ठा को पार कर दिया! सोच इधर कि, काम म्लेच्छों के! कहते हो मैं आज़ाद हूँ, पर हूँ नहीं।  कहते हो कि तुम्हे बहुत अनुभव है, पर बातें सुनकर ऐसा लगता नहीं!

म्लेच्छ जातियां कहती हैं कि आज़ादी मना है।  बस मना है! कोई अनसुनी करता है तो सूली पर चढ़ा देते हैँ।  तुम कहते हो कि मैं आज़ाद हूँ और फिर सूली पे चढ़ा देते हो! अरे इंसान कहाँ जाए? तेल लेने?

आजकल हर रोज यही खुद को आईने में देखकर सोच रहती है - "इतना करके क्या मिला? बाबाजी का ठुल्लु?" कह दो कि सपने मत देखो, सोचना बंद करो, किताबें मत पढ़ो, अरे और तो और नौकरी भी मत करो!  अरे कह दो कि ज़िंदा भी मत रहो। नहीं तो मेरे पास दो ही विकल्प हैं: या तो कांचा चीन्हा बनो, या फिर कांच के सपने लेकर बैठे रहो, निठल्ले!

--निशा

तुमने क्या समझा?

तुम्हे घर साफ़ करते देख काफी कष्ट होता था।  तुम हाँफते थे, पसीने से तरबतर होते थे।  इसलिए कोई दोस्त कभी  घर नहीं आया। मैंने दोस्त कम ही बनाये। शायद मैं आदि हूँ अकेलेपन का।  इसीलिए जब कहते हो यह तुम्हारे घर आएगा, वह तुम्हारे घर घुसेगा, तो समझ में आता है!  यह समझ में आता है कि उस बचपन का अकेलापन आज भी जारी है, उसी तरह।  शायद तुम चाहते हो कि मेरा ख्याल कोई न रखे, या कोई  मुझसे बात न करे, एक तुम्हारा ही हक़ ।  शायद तुम मुझे जीवन भर के लिए अकेला कर देना चाहते हो!

तुम ऐसा चाहते हो, क्योंकि मेरे जीवन साथी चुनने पर तुम्हे आपत्ति थी।  उफ़! कौन कौन सी बातें तुमने न कही। मैंने तो स्कूल में यही सीखा कि हम सबका खून लाल ही होता है, फिर यह फ़र्क़ कैसा।  यह जातपात कैसी? म्लेच्छ समाजों कि तरह क्यों सोचा तुमने? आज भी उन दिनों कि सोच से रोम रोम सिहर जाता है।

तुम न कहते हो कि मेरे दिमाग कि नसें ढीली हैं। या फिर मेरी खोपड़ी उलटी है।  ऐसा तुम कई सालों से कहते आये हो।  फिर बुरा क्यों लगता है जब कोई मुझे मंदबुद्धि कहता है ? शायद सभी को मुझे मंदबुद्धि कहने का अधिकार हो जाए इसीलिए तुम बार बार सबके सामने ऐसा कहते हो? या यह फिर यह कोई अभिनय है?

तुमने शायद समझा कि तुम्हारा ताना मैंने बूझा नहीं। उसी समय समझ में आ गया था। अंतरजाल पर जाने के लिए सरकारी सामान का प्रयोग करूं या गैर सरकारी, इससे तुम्हे तो कोई फ़र्क़ नहीं पड़ता।  पर फिर भी तुम बोले।  तुम्हे तो अंतरजाल पे जाना आता ही नहीं, फिर बोलने कि होड़ क्यों थी? क्यों यह ज़ाहिर करते हो बार बार कि मेरे पास एक साधारण गैर सरकारी महाविद्यालय कि नौकरी है और तुम्हारे पास कोई है जो सरकारी अफसर है।  उस अफसर को सलाम है।  उस अफसर ने मेहनत की है। सम्भवतः मैंने मेहनत नहीं की। परन्तु ये बार बार कहना?

अब तुम्हारे ताने तो मेरे खाने तक पहुँच गए। कितना कुछ जो पसंद था, छोड़ दिया मैंने। लो मैंने अब तो आलू के परांठे भी छोड़ दिए।  तुमने धीरे धीरे मेरे पसंद कि सारी चीज़ें ले ली। आज तुम मेरे साँसों तक पहुंचे हो, कल क्या मेरे गले तक पहुंचोगे?

मेरी तमन्ना है कि मैं तुमसे पहले जाऊँ।  समझो तो आखिर कि मेरे बिना दुनियाँ कैसी है? खूबसूरत ही होगी शायद !

--निशा

Milestones 2012

Last year, it was all about silence. This year, I would be talking about milestones. Milestones that have left indelible impressions on my mind.

This year, the months of June and December would be known as the milestone months for me. The fruit of eight years came out in the form of a 166 page document with a fair amount of pictures and YouTube videos. A presentation version of this document was screened in December thus receiving generally positive comments. This fruit took too long to ripen and yet, on the last day of this year, my mother called up and asked me if I was well. The contents of the conversation were sufficient to tell me that she was still proud of me. On the day of the presentation and after, I missed my father again and again, because he appears in my dreams every now and then, perhaps to wish me well and convey good luck for my studies and life in general. I would also take this opportunity to thank Professor Onkar Dikshit and Dr. Nandini Nilakantan who took most of my worries away by listening to me when I had to crib! Dr. Bharat Lohani, thank you for all you have done for me.

My friend Nilanjana had a baby boy this year. She named him “Rig” after the Rig Veda (oldest book on Hindu scriptures). Sarika, a common good friend, whom I met at Delhi (after 10 years) during a conference, perhaps appeared more excited about describing the baby than the mother herself.

Constructive criticism and politics for the welfare of the junta totally went missing from the Hall 4. The person, who had sacrificed 40 years of his family life for serving Hall 4 was shown the door. The demeanour meted out to him by the Chieftain of the ship was demeaning, hurtful and in bad taste. Shri S. N. Pradhan, lovingly known as Narayan dada, had to leave the Hall premises in “10 minutes” with tearful eyes. He was shifted by the administration to Hall 9. I am told that within a span of two months of his departure from Hall 4, the Dean of Students' Affairs of IIT Kanpur, met him personally and congratulated him for establishing a good accounting and recording system in Hall 9. This was also the first time when, an aspiring politician of Hall 4 remarked, “Sir, you are very idealistic. If you move away from your ideals, you could achieve a lot!” I thank the Almighty, if he exists, for giving me parents and teachers who taught me to stand my ground in the most adverse of circumstances.

The Bhagavad Gita inspires us to be bold and believe in actions without craving for the result to “benefit” the self. It is in the “Karma” we should believe in and there is where the excitement lies. I was never a great fan of new year resolutions. Sometimes we avoid things, thinking of the consequences. The teachings of the Bhagavad Gita have inspired me to change this characteristic. The Bhagavad Gita also teaches us about “skins” the soul wears from one life to another. One could easily extend this logic to memories from one phase to another. Memories should be let gone, for good, for shifting from one phase to another.

On that note, as I gear up for the life forward from this point, I wish you a Happy and Prosperous New Year.

বিস্তীর্ণ এপারে

ক্যালকাটা ইয়ুথ ক্য়ার - এর ভূপেন হাজারিকা অনেক দিন আগে "বিস্তীর্ণ দুপারে" নামের গানটা গেয়েছিলেন| আশির দশকে-র এই গান খুব ই জনপ্রিয় হয়েছিল| পরবর্তী কালে এই গান কে অন্যান্য ভাষায় অনুবাদিত করা হয়| গানটি যে অন্য ভাষাতেও জনপ্রিয় হয়েছিল বলা বাহুল্য| গান-এর মর্ম কি সেটা হয়ত আমি ছোটবেলায় কিছুই বুঝিনি, কিম্বা হয়ত বোঝার চেষ্টাও করিনি, কিন্তু হালের এক ঘটনা আমাকে এই গানটির দু লাইন মনে পড়িয়ে দিল: 

... নৈতিকতার স্খলন দেখেও, মানবতার পতন দেখেও, নির্লজ্জ ভাবে তুমি বইছ কেন? ...

আজ কানপুর নগরে বসে, আমি এই রচনা টি লিখছি| কানপুর-এ আমার এই অষ্টম বছর. আমি যেখানে বসে, তার থেকে ৩-৪ কি. মি. দূরে মা গঙ্গা বয়ে যাছেন. নগরের নোংরা, আবর্জনা, অবসাদ সব ধুয়ে নিয়ে যাচ্ছেন - যতটা পারেন আর কি? লিখতে লিখতে সুকুমার রায়-এর পাগলা দাশুর কথাও মনে পড়ছে| পাগলা দাশুর ক্যাবলা মার্কা কথা আর তার হম্বি তম্বি ভাব, ছোটবেলায় এই গল্পগুলো তো খুব ই হাসিয়েছে| সুকুমার রায়-এর এই চরিত্রটি নিছক ওনার কল্পনা না কারুর প্রতি ব্যঙ্গ সেটা আমার জানা নেই| 

দুঃখের কথা এই যে আজকালকার নেতা গোছের যারা উত্পন্ন হয়েছেন তাহারা এই পাগলা দাশুর চরিত্রের মতন-ই| দিনের বেলা কোনো কন্যার আলু-থালু বক্ষ যুগলের বিবরণে কিল্লল্লের প্রকাশ কিম্বা গামছার নীচে দিয়ে উঁকি মারতে থাকা কোনো অধস্তন ব্যক্তির জননাঙ্গের আকারের সম্বন্ধে তারস্বরে বিবরণ, রাতের বেলা বসে সিগারেট, মদ টানা আর নিরর্থক কূটনীতি, এরাই হচ্ছে আজকালকার পাগলা দাশু| মাননীয় বিধান চন্দ্র রায় একদিন বলেছিলেন "আজ বাঙালিরা যা চিন্তন করবেন, কাল দেশ সেটা নিয়ে চিন্তন করবে"| সেটাই যদি ধরা হয়, তাহলে কি কাল ভারত দেশের কোনায়ে-কনায়ে পাগলা দাশু-রা ছেয়ে যাবে? চক্ষু চড়কগাছ করে দিচ্ছে এ ধারার চিন্তা! 

বাঙালিদের মধ্যে সর্বহারাদের রবিনহুড হবার চিন্তাধারা দেখা দিয়েছে| কিন্তু কথায় বলে "নিজের বেলায় আঁটিশাটি আর পরের বেলায় দাঁত ক পাটি?" এক পাগলা দাশুর মাঙ্কি ক্যাপ হারিয়ে গেছিল| দুদিন পরে দাশু দেখেন যে এক গরিব ছেলে ওই মাঙ্কি ক্যাপ টা পরে ঘুরছে| অমনি কেড়ে নিলেন, দুটি বকা লাগিয়ে ফেললেন, আর ফোঁশ - ফোঁশ করতে করতে নিজের বাড়িতে ঢুকলেন| কি লজ্জা কি লজ্জা! এই গল্প শুনে তো স্বয়ম রবিনহুড রেগে বোম হয়ে গেছিলেন!

আর - এক রবিনহুড তো কর্মচারীদের হাত থেকে চায়ের গ্লাস-ই কেড়ে নিলেন, বললেন তোমাদের তো দুধ খাওয়া বারণ, চা টা কি হাওয়া দিয়ে তৈরী হচ্ছে? হে মা ভবানী, এই রবিনহুডের গর্দান নাও! কর্মচারী সকাল সাড়ে ছটা-র থেকে রাত্তির ১০ টা পর্যন্ত ঘষ্টাছ্ছে, আর ওদের চা পর্য্যন্ত বরাদ্দ নয়? ছি ছি ছি! আগে শোনা গেছিল যে এই রবিনহুড একবার সরস্বতী পুজো-র মন্ডপ থেকে একজন কে এইজন্ন্যে তাড়িয়ে দিয়েছিলেন, কেননা ওই ভদ্রলোক বাঙালি নন! আর শোনা যাচ্ছে যে ইনিই নাকি বাঙালি দের নেতা| মধ্যান্য ভোজনে বসে, সেই বক্ষ যুগলের গল্প, আর বারান্দায় দাড়িয়ে জননাঙ্গের আকার বিশ্লেষণ, এই কি বাঙালি, এই কি আদর্শ বাঙালি নেতা?

বাঙালি দের প্রতি প্রার্থনা, এরকম পাগলা দাশু দের কখনই লাই দেবেন না, বরং পশ্চাতদেশে দুটো জুতোর বাড়ি মেরে খেদিয়ে দেবেন|

2011: The year of silence

The reader might be puzzled owing to the title of the article. Each year, there is an experiment that I run on myself, regarding the terms that I would maintain with the people around. The ideas for these experiments often come from the experienced people. Some practices are successful and some, owing to the "human being" I am, fail.

The experiment this year was silence. There weren't many blogs this year, nor the despair and agony. Whims and egos were mostly responded through silence. Even some enquiries... Each year in my notes, I have been vocal about my achievements. This year, I choose to be silent about them. I will instead touch upon some of the remarkable incidents that happened this year.

Nirmali and Vivek decided to tie the knot this year and I seized the chance to travel to my home state Madhya Pradesh (not to the home town sadly). It was satisfying to taste the water and the food there. One could easily say "back to my mother's lap." It was also an opportunity for me to boast about the home state to friends who hailed from Bihar and Kerala, whom I had accompanied! Vivek, finally delivered his open seminar in the month of December and has left for his home town. Hope he will be reaching Tezpur pretty soon. May he find his "ideal industry" in 2012.

My friend and colleague Susham Biswas, finally defended his thesis. Finally relaxed, wasn't he? He left me with a question ... "When are you defending?"

The last bit of 2011 was a sad in the history of IIT Kanpur. People in the position of responsibility were blamed of being indulgent in their demanour, and some were found taking sides with their common sense gone for grazing the grass. People in the position of responsibility were found saying "I don't care what your feelings are!" I am reminded of Michael Jackson's song "They don't really care about us!" 2011 was a year, in which IIT Kanpur saw people threatening poor workers shivering with cold, that they would lose their jobs if they took broken twigs to warm up their homes.  

2011 taught that being angry and whimsical doesn't really help everytime, a suggestion that I recall to have given to one of my relatives, a year or two earlier. It also taught that criticism isn't the most welcome move for some people in this world, inspite of the fact that culturally, our country has earned its accolades and knowledge from being sceptical and curious. Often, in the absence of genuine arguments and logic, attributes like "Ghajni" and "Fatty" are easily earned.

The eve of the New Year was rainy ... and so was the first day of January. The celebrations of the New Year were dampened therefore. As this day passes, I hope wisdom, heath, health, happiness and sunshine spreads, in IIT Kanpur, India and the World in general.

प्रजातंत्र

बाबासाहेब अम्बेडकर जी ने जब भारत के संविधान की रचना की थी, तब संभवतः उन्होंने सोचा भी न होगा की "प्रजातंत्र" शब्द का इस प्रकार दुरुपयोग हो सकता है. हमारे देश में आज का प्रजातंत्र अल्पसंख्यकों की राजनीति, महासख्यकों की कुटाई और धनाढ्यों की वाहवाही के खेल का मैदान है. आज हमारा देश वही चला सकता है जो दो या अधिक गुटों में लड़ाई करवा के मेवा खाने की हिम्मत रखता हो. आज हमारा देश वही चला सकता है जो अपने दामन को बचाकर दूसरों के कन्धों पैर बन्दूक रखने की हिम्मत रखता हो. आज हमारा देश वही चला सकता है जो प्रजातंत्र के नाम पे प्रजा को गुमराह कर मजा लूट-ता हो.  

कुछ ऐसा ही हो रहा है हमारे इस देश में जगह जगह पर. मैं संसद का अपमान नहीं करना चाहूँगा, इसीलिए किसी मंत्री, संत्री की बात नहीं करूंगा. तो आइये यंत्रियों की बात करते हैं, अभियाँत्रिकों की बात करते हैं. एक अभियांत्रिक था, सत्येन्द्र दुबे... जिसके बारे में कहते कहते उनके शिक्षकों की आँखें नम हो जातीं हैं. हाल ही में आई आई टी कानपुर के गोल्डेन जुबिली समारोह में जब सत्येन्द्र जी का उल्लेख हुआ, तो उनके शिक्षक फफक कर रो पड़े. 

और आज की बात है २०११ में जब किसी तेल कंपनी से निकले हुए हताश अधिकारी श्रीमान रोली पोली इसी प्रजातंत्र का हवाला देते हुए, दिन में १६ घंटे से अधिक काम करने वालों के मक्खन एवं दूध बंद करवा देते हैं. वही श्रीमान रोली पोली कडाके की ठण्ड में अपने कमरे पर ब्लोवर का सेवन करते हैं, और बाहर ठिठुरते कर्मचारियों को धमकाते हैं की "लकड़ियाँ ले गए तो मैं ऊपर शिकायत कर दूंगा, तुम लोगों को नौकरी से निकलवा दूंगा!" सुनने में आ रहा है की श्रीमान रोली पोली अपना काम छोड़कर अब राजा का पद सँभालने की तैयारी कर रहे हैं. मर्यादा पुरुषोत्तम श्री राम ने प्रजा की बात मानकर और हारकर अपनी पत्नी को राज्य से निष्काषित कर दिया था, और यहाँ भावी राजा अपना उल्लू सीधा करने की बात कर रहे हैं. 

अब बात करते हैं श्रीमान झंडूलाल बनारसी के सम्बन्ध में. श्रीमान बनारसी बिन पेंदे के लोटे हैं, अर्थात गंगा गए तो गंगा दास और यमुना गए तो यमुना दास. जब तक उनका नाम हर काम में न हो, तब तक उन्हें चैन नहीं पड़ता, उन्हें चाहे इसके लिए कोई कुकर्म ही क्यों न करना पड़े. इसी कारण वे झंडू भी हैं. उन्हें उनका खेल ४०० लोगो के पेट एवं ४० लोगो के रोजगार से भी अधिक प्रिय है. २-३ वर्ष पूर्व जब श्रीमान बनारसी के शराबी मित्र प्रजातांत्रिक चुनाव हार गए थे, तब उनके और उनके मित्रों के मुख से वचन कटु आ रहे थे!  

ततैया तोप के बारे में क्या कहने! उनको अंग्रेजी और हिंदी तो छोड़ ही दीजिये अपनी मातृभाषा भी ठीक से नहीं आती. ऐसे व्यक्ति जब एक शब्द में खाने के गुणवत्ता का कारण पूछते हैं, तो श्रीमान बनारसी के कान अपने आप खड़े हो जाते हैं. और हाय रे मिलिट्री पुत्र! अपनी बात तो ठीक से कह न सके और राजा का सिंघासन भी गवां बैठे. प्रजातंत्र जो ठहरी हमारी अभियांत्रिक जनता! 

जनता को संभालना होगा और अपनी आँखें खोलनी होंगी. विशेषकर निरी चंडूखाने की गप्प छोड़कर अपने तीसरे नेत्र को खोलना होगा. वरन वोह दिन दूर नहीं जब हम कहने को मजबूर होंगे: "जब हर शाख पे उल्लू बैठा है तो अंजाम-ए गुलिस्तान क्या होगा?"

त्रिया चरित्रं

"त्रिया चरित्रं, पुरुषस्य भाग्यम, देवौ ना जानाति कुतो मनुष्यः"


अर्थात स्त्री के चरित्र और पुरुष के भाग्य के सम्बन्ध में तो देवों को भी नहीं पता है, मनुष्य क्या चीज़ है. बचपन से ही इस श्लोक को सुनते आ रहे हैं हम! मुझे ऐसा आभास था की संभवतः यह श्लोक स्त्री के चरित्र पर लांछन है, परन्तु हाल ही में हुए कुछ विशेष घटनाओं ने मेरे इस आभास को गलत प्रमाणित किया.


चलते हैं २-३ वर्ष पहले हुई घटना पर. सुश्री सोनल मान सिंह जी कानपुर में आयीं हुईं थीं. स्पिक - मेकै के विरासत कार्यक्रम के परिप्रेक्ष्य में किदवईनगर  स्थित विद्यालय में उनका कार्यक्रम होना था. कार्यक्रम के आरम्भ में ही उन्होंने ऐसी कुछ बातें कहीं जिन्होंने मुझे झकझोर कर रख दिया. जो उन्होंने कहा उसका एक उद्धरण यहाँ प्रस्तुत है - "... आप सभी ने सुना होगा की भगवान् श्री राम ने वन में जाकर एक पत्थर पर अपने चरण धरे. कुछ ही क्षणों में वह पत्थर एक नारी के रूप में बदल गया. वह नारी देवी अहिल्या थी!" फिर उन्होंने हम सभी से प्रश्न किया "...लेकिन यह सोचिये की जिस भगवन श्री राम को मर्यादा पुरुषोत्तम कहा जाता है, क्या वे कभी भी किसी नारी के ऊपर पैर रखेंगे?" समस्त दर्शकगण निस्तब्ध थे! फिर उन्होंने स्पष्ट किया "... वाल्मीकि रामायण में उल्लेख है की देवी अहिल्या ब्रह्म ज्ञानी थीं. जब इन्द्र उनसे मिलने आये थे तब अहिल्या ने उनको पहचान लिया था. संस्पर्श हुआ, और गौतम ऋषि भी क्षुभ हुए. परन्तु एक ब्रह्म ज्ञानी नारी को गौतम ऋषि भी श्राप नहीं दे सकते थे. उन्होंने कटु वचन कहे. कटु वचन सुनकर देवी अहिल्या ने क्रोध में एक पत्थर का रूप धारण कर लिया. जब श्री राम आये तो उन्होंने पत्थर को प्रणाम किया, तब देवी अहिल्या प्रकट हुईं" देवी अहिल्या के ब्रह्म ज्ञानी होने का उल्लेख ना जाने क्यों, वर्तमान ग्रंथों में नहीं मिलता. संभवतः नारी का सम्मान करना हम भूल गए हैं.


अब वर्तमान के कुछ घटनाओं पर हम ध्यान केन्द्रित करते हैं.

1. कलर्स चैनल पर बिग बॉस नामक धारावाहिक प्रतिदिन दर्शाया जा रहा है. इस कार्यक्रम के बारे में अधिक जानकारी प्राप्त करने के लिए कार्यक्रम का वेबसाइट देखें. इस कार्यक्रम एक प्रतिभागी श्री आकाशदीप सहगल, जो स्काई वाकर के नाम से जाने जाना पसंद करते हैं, ने एक अन्य प्रतिभागी सुश्री महक चहल के व्यक्तिगत जीवन के सम्बन्ध में कुशब्द कहे (विडिओ Youtube पर देख लें). इन कुशब्दों के साथ यह भी कहा की "तू गन्दी औरत है". हम जब अकसर किसी महिला को गन्दी औरत कहते हैं, तो संभवतः हमारा संकेत उसकी चरित्र पर होता है. संभवतः हम यह भी कहना चाहते है की उस महिला को अपने यौनेच्छा पर नियंत्रण नहीं है, एवं वह महिला अपने इस इच्छा की प्रतिपूर्ति करने हेतु किसी भी पुरुष अथवा साधन का सहारा ले सकती है. किसी महिला के यौनेच्छा पर टिपण्णी करने का अधिकार किसी पुरुष को है? क्या कोई पुरुष अपने यौनेच्छा पर नियंत्रण रख सकता है? यदि नहीं तो क्या वो "गन्दा पुरुष" नहीं हुआ? क्या कारण है की हम "गन्दी महिला" या "गन्दी औरत" की परिकल्पना तो कर सकते हैं, परन्तु एक "गंदे पुरुष" की नहीं? 
2. हाल ही में किसी नामी महाविद्यालय के एक छात्रा ने आत्महत्या करने का प्रयास किया. मैं आत्महत्या के प्रयास करने का कारण तो नहीं जानता, परन्तु उस के पश्चात जो घटनाएं हुईं उनपे प्रकाश डालना चाहूँगा. कुछ दिनों पहले ही उस महाविद्यालय से निकाले गए छात्र ने उस छात्रा से दूरभाष से संपर्क किया और कहा की "तू इसका सारा इल्जाम महाविद्यालय के नियमों पर लगा दे!" इसके कुछ दिनों पश्चात किसी एक छात्र ने एक वेबसाइट पर उस छात्रा के नाम का खुलासा करते हुए उसके सम्बन्ध में गन्दी गन्दी बातें लिखी. यह वेबसाइट घटना के लगभग १ वर्ष बाद बनायीं गयी.  आत्महत्या के प्रयास की घटना हुई, और उसके एक वर्ष बाद वेबसाइट बना. यह कैसा जाल, और यह कैसी चाल? गलती किसकी? लड़की की या फिर किसी चोट खाए हुए और बिलखते हुए आत्मा की? अब यदि लड़की शादी करती है तो उसके वैवाहिक जीवन पर क्या असर होगा?
3. आई आई टी कानपुर के हॉल ४ की बात पर मैं आना चाहूँगा. घटना का पूर्ण उल्लेख करना अनावश्यक है, परन्तु किसी कारण वश हॉल ४ में काम कर रहे एक महिला पर दुश्चरित्र होने का आरोप लगा. उनका दोष मात्र इतना था की उन्होंने हॉल ४ के मेस कर्मचारियों के शौचालय का उपयोग किया था (यहाँ यह कहना आवश्यक है की हॉल ४ में महिलाओं अथवा महिला कर्मचारियों के लिए कोई शौचालय उपलब्ध नहीं है). तो क्या महिला शौचालय भी न जाए? क्या नारी होने की यह व्यथा भी झेलनी होगी? ऊपर से हॉल ४ के महान मेस प्रबंधक महोदय ने टिपण्णी की: "सर मैं तो 100% गारंटी लेने को तैयार हूँ. वो औरत तो ऐसी ही है!" "ऐसी ही है" अर्थात वो दुश्चरित्र है! यहाँ बताना उचित होगा की हॉल - ४ के लगभग सभी छात्रों ने मेस प्रबंधक के इस आचरण की निंदा की!

उपरोक्त सभी घटनाओं को देखकर तो यह प्रतीत होने लगा है की स्त्री के चरित्र के सम्बन्ध में वर्तमान में बहुत सारे  व्यक्ति जानकारी रखते हैं या रखने लगे हैं. एक स्त्री की सोच क्या है यह तो वो ही जाने, क्या यह लोग अपने आप को भगवान् बनाने के प्रयास में लगे हैं?  



इस चर्चा के पश्चात इस निष्कर्ष पर पहुंचना आसान है की किसी स्त्री के चरित्र पर वार करना एक सामाजिक कुरीति एवं खेल हो गया है. चूंकि महिलाएं अब पढ़ लिखकर लड़कों से टक्कर लेने में कुशल हो चुकीं हैं, इसी कारण संभवतः एक भय पुरुषों के मन में घर कर गया है. आखिर कब तक यह कुरीति चलती रहेगी? आखिर कब तक पुरुष स्त्रियों के चरित्रों की गारंटी लेते रहेंगे? आखिर कब तक यह विश्वास समाज में जारी रहेगा की जब एक नारी किसी पुरुष से बात कर रही हो, तो वो अपनी उपलब्धता उस पुरुष को बता रही है? 

Harry Potter and the Visits to Hogwarts

Hogwarts actually accepted me! That was, to put in the humblest of the available expressions, mindblowing. I had just returned after spending a year with the Beauxbatons school of Magic, and was in a natatory stage with the memories of the likes of Fleur Delacour. While I surfed the Leaky Cauldron for purchasing essentials for my entry to Hogwarts, various people stood with mock respect, which probably led me to believe that the top of the world had been already achieved, though I was treading along somewhere in central India. As the Hogwarts express left its usual platform, rumblings in the stomach and thumpings in the heart followed till the point I made the entry into the magical palace.

The humble welcome

Our days began with the morning rounds of the forbidden forest (for the couch potatoes). Surprisingly, the plump Madam Sprout and the handsome Cedric Diggory were leading the sessions. Cedric Diggory was there for pretty obvious reasons, but of course the reasons themselves were conspicuous by their presence in terms of cardinality. Later in the day, when the tall and charming Professor Dumbledore shook hands with me, asked my name and introduced himself, my jaw hung in sheer awe of his sheer humility. Later, in a meeting of the freshers and the professors, Remus Lupin, who was humble, and Filius Flitwick who called himself the “aspiring politician” yet humorous. His very persona sounded “Wingardium Leviosa”. The charming Ms Pince from the library was another wonderment who spoke more than a language or two. Gilderoy was present too and he was, if one may forgive the expression, silent! 

 

A few from the freshmen kept on asking whether I had really been to the Beauxbatons school for a year before I had joined Hogwarts! The curious people wanted to know if I had really encountered Fleur Delacour the quarter-veela from that college. I had a tough time answering the curiosities and trying to impress them with my french at the same time!

Snape and his symphonies

Professor Snape made his presence felt in a remarkable fashion. He was infamous for his brutally exaggerated criticisms of people who were unaware of healthy practices and had ambitions of being managers rather than being magicians. He often opined that they were muggles or brought up by muggles. However, on the other hand was of the most amazing personalities in the college. magic just lay in his delivery, and he would practically romance with whatever he taught. Percy Weasley and his classmates often recount his interactions with him while at Hogwarts. tells me about the stories that he wove with the beams and bricks and their interaction in the group named G9. Professor Snape, in the following years, surprisingly turned sweeter. At a certain point of time, Professor Snape became so student friendly, that he decided to pay extra efforts to students and the facilities required for them. Unfortunately, for strangely unknown reasons he decided to apparate to another magic school, when he was nominated for the best teacher award at Hogwarts.

The buzzing bumblebees

One of the famous initiatives of the Fat Friar were to bring the bumblebees from various colleges of magic to Hogwarts. He thought that it would be nice to increase the future students of Hogwarts and would help some poor muggles to turn into excellent wizards. The bumblebees would always turn up each summer in different colors, shapes and sizes. They were always the favourites of Professor Snape who would always entertain them with his jokes, even giving them names of the feline creature, in case someone wished to appear for a C.A.T. Examination. Sometime Professor Minerva McGonagall would also turn up to give a motherly touch to the entire process of training the bumblebees. And it was amazing how multiple versions of Hermione Granger, Colin Creevey, Justin Finch-Fletchley and Luna Lovegood would turn up each summer, though a couple of Dracos would appear once in a while. Over the years, they would always fly international class, either with a big dream or a doctoral scholarship. The Ron Weasleys were severely missed on such occasions, though Neville Longbottom made himself quite available. After 28 days of rigourous training on the various aspects of magic, the bumblebees would ritually create a pool of tears before departure.

The Professors' Putterers

Each semester, the Professors were given some Putterers to help them in the courses of magic. Of course, as expected, there were three kinds of them. Firstly there were ones who were the Gryffindors. Secondly, the Ravenclaws and lastly, the Hufflepuffs. One or two amongst them did emerge from Slytherin, but they were negligible in number. The Gryffindors were always putting in an extra effort and were always assisting in courses and the O.W.L.s, The Ravenclaws were the intelligent ones and were making themselves useful in the activities of the college while the Hufflepuffs were rather, to put in the least strongest of words, good for nothings. They would go to any extent to make an idiot of themselves, especially when special help was expected of them. The “pegs” and “arrows” would invariably appear similar to them. 

 

The Hufflepuffs were also had a special group amongst themselves. The misuse of Hogwarts artifacts group was the most infamous in the college. This group actively participated in calling names for female students, whiling away their time in browsing publications seeking connubiality in the Daily Prophet or over the Wizarding Network.

Gaddings with the Gilderoys

“Gather around, gather around. Can you all see me, can you all hear me? Excellent....!”

Harry Potter and the Chamber of Secrets

If pomp and show were anything to go by, the Gilderoys were the example. Equipped with a dainty grin, their initial days at Hogwarts were spent in the quarterage of the Fat Friar and Professor Snape. In the later years, they got so apparently and incredibly busy in making themselves popular by going cock-a-doodle-do, that they forgot their own apprentices. Their apprentices became slowly timourous about the ramifications of not telling Gilderoy and attending someone's charms class, the wizard or witch might end up with a red and black seal on the scroll. The one reason that the mandrakes shrieked when someone crept up near a Gilderoy was this.

Wonderings with the Weasleys

A bespectacled guy, Ron Weasley turned up a year later than me to the Hogwarts castle. Timid by appearance, but the heart of an Indian tiger, he came along with Jeanne. Jeanne was rather shy to make an appearance at public meetings, but was knowledgeable enough to make an impression. Like Harry, Ron too got stuck with one of the Gilderoys, for some time. Ron wanted to tour around, get out of the Hogwarts castle and was keen to get himself known for good reasons. Life would of course have different plans for Ron. His ventures for adventures were repeatedly blocked by Gilderoy in favour of Fluffy, the three headed creature. Alas! If only he had listened to Harry, regarding the realities of the college and Dumbledore's kind heartedness.

Athenaeum Bibliotheca

The only place where I found myself comfortable was the athenaeum. In the mornings when the rays of the morning sun bathed the athenaeum, people like Collin Creevey used to rush out to catch a glimpse of the same with their wizard rolls. The fountain that lay close by in the form of Hedwig, was a reminder of knowledge to all who were interested, and a reminder of Lavender to all those interested in the arrows of cupid and its potions. It was also one of the favourite places of Nymphadora and Lupin. Lupin tells us that he used his handkerchief and the love potion to make Nymphadora fall in love with him. 

 

Warm in winters and cool in summers, it was an excellent place to be in. One could go to the reference section or to the restricted section and read books to one's heart's content. In fact, if there was any place in Hogwarts where one could obliviate the memories of worldly sadness, the athenaeum was that.

Vivacious Voldemort

Vivacious Voldemort was intelligent, convincing and held the power of hypnotic talk to convince any person who had the courage to oppose him intellectually. Interestingly the Fat Friar, Professor Snape, Repus Lupin, and the Gilderoys were all under the hypnotic influence of the Vivacious Voldemort. Probably, they were under the influence of the imperius curse. 

 

However, Voldemort was a previous student of Hogwarts, and it was proud of him. He had implemented several positive practices with which the student were fearlessly able to critique and question the system. He had once famously commented “If you have no solution, do not complain”.

Exodus

As I gently plan my exit from Hogwarts to possibly move into other magic schools, I would not greatly regret being here for sometime. I would take back the memories of intellectual friends and good books … and pray not the Hufflepuffs! 

 

Author's note: This is an article in figurative language with caricatures copiously borrowed from the Harry Potter Series by J. K. Rowling. Although, the series deals in the world of magic, the author has experienced that similar reflections happen in the real world. A millions of thanks to Ms. J. K. Rowling for writing those seven nice books, which are an example of exceptional story telling.

Learning from 'X' Generation

X is a representative of the number 10, an allegory for Generation X, also an emblem for danger and a symbol for dissatisfaction. The manifold effect that 'X' can generate can either increase or diminish an entity, it could push someone up the skies or thrust someone into sheer oblivion. It could also actually inspire somebody to rest in peace, for ever.

X gave me books. From those about Michel Angelo and the Sistine chapel, to those about the philosophies of the East and the West, were the good things that I found again. Dr. Nandini Nilakantan, thank you for rejuvenating my interest in books as well as in Algebraic Topology. I could relive the days when I was “intelligent”, while I audited your course. Thank you as well for giving me a patient hearing on my research area and problems associated with geometry. I also made friends with Dr. Naren Naik, from the Department of Electrical Engineering, and we had a brief tête-a- tête on our research areas.

X, in the midway, came up with the SPIC-MACAY's national convention organised at IIT Kanpur. Learning “Naad Yoga” from Ustad Zia Fariduddin Dagar sahab from Four to Seven o'clock in the morning, for three days, is one of the proud and privileged memories that I would cherish for my life. The sitar by Ustad Shahid Parvez, Koodiyattam by Shri Margi Madhu, Mohan Veena by Pandita Vishwa Mohan Bhatt were mesmerising. Apart from that coming close to people like Nilesh Khaitan, Vivek Agarwal, Gunjan, Hemangini, Surbhi, Sarayu, Chandana and Tavishi was a wonderful experience.

X saw Srinath defend his thesis and Bhavna happily graduate from this institute. The sheer happiness that bore in their faces were lights of hope that I might just have in the future.

X helped me reunite with a few schoolmates of mine on the happier note, while on the other hand and on the sorrowful side a dear schoolmate and class fellow Nigel Eric Wills passed away in Australia. He was a genuinely good soul and he would surely be missed by our classmates and all his friends. A similar unfortunate incident at IIT Kanpur rocked the student community during the examinations.

X should be really thanked in the end. I couldn't be doing justice without mentioning it. It reminded me of the famous John McEnroe outburst “You can't be serious!” Over the last six years, I hadn't seen myself with so much of bitter emotions compared to that of the last few months. The lab which hustled and bustled with laughter and gaiety two years earlier, now wears a deserted look today, because people had to walk out of the lab and work in the library to pacify their exasperation.

X wasn't represented as a thesis in this document. It's merely a perspective on how 'X' treated me over the last 12 months. On the last day of the year, I am wondering as to whether I should mull over the good things that happened or the “evil-that-men-do” sorts. This could be also on how lessons were learned from events and occurrences, those which I am so naïve to ignore every time. I wonder how it is back to square one for me again and each time, where “square one” represents the principles and ethics that my parents chose to inculcate in me. This isn't a thesis on “square one” either, because it seems to effortlessly vanish in thin air once we talk about it, because the sheer mention of it brings scornful looks, contempt and disappointment. This isn't a thesis on “make-your-presence-felt”, because over the past few months it was felt that this phrase meant asking repetitive foolhardy questions that people CAN answer and not asking questions that make people think. This document is a reminder to people that I do not copy or lift, but write in my own words.

Wish you a happy new year.

The War Cry

It's a remarkable day in my life. It isn't if such remarkable days didn't happen earlier. But this one is unique.

The world has its incredible ways of judging people. Well, at least my part of the world does. The educational ecosystem is almost brimming with blooming busybodies called bootlickers and those who like to be bootlicked, and further those who have the guts to tell me "Hey look! I like that bootlicker!", and ask me, albeit indirectly, "Why don't you be like him?".

Could I say that bootlickers have always pissed me off? Oh yes, surely! Right from the beginning of my career, where a frequent boozer dared to berate me using my chivalry as an excuse, right till date, where a seemingly horrible chatterbox and research stalker tends to grab all the 'effin' attention.

If we try to write a how-to manual on methods of grabbing 'Effin' attention, one can easily produce a state-of-art. I am actually avoiding the risk, since I might just be violating some intellectual property rights because I haven't got the time to scan through the patent database. Still if there are any of those ways left, they can be summarised by saying "eat up all the 'effin' resources" that you can, while you are at it." Do so much of it, so the other guys are labelled failures to make the best of the resources, after all matrimonial websites and web-cams are cheap things to procure for most people.

I declare a war cry today on this 'rut' in places of higher education. A war cry far wilder than that of Harbhajan (see picture - courtesy CricInfo). So much so, that I would like to risk showing the person my third carpal bone on such dramatic and provocative occasions.

Lessons from Life 2009

2009 began normally for others, while I recovered from experiences in 2008. The first three months were full of brutal flashbacks of the last year repeatedly appearing in my dreams. My mother suddenly fell sick in the month of April and was drained of energy to a substantial extent. Probably the tensions of 2008 had taken a lot from her. My mother has had severe bouts of asthma before and had very bravely handled herself while my father was sick in 1995 and 2006. This was probably for the first time I experienced the “tigress” going weak and saying “I cannot take it any more.” This was also probably for the first time that I was unable to attend a critical situation in the family owing to my academic pressures. My mother was hospitalized two times within a month. I finally decided to take leave and go see her for a week.

I had the opportunity of visiting Delhi two times in this year and had mixed experiences. Interacting with colleagues and students from IIT Delhi was an exciting one as we chatted on areas of mutual interest and comparing our “bulla” sessions and facilities with theirs. In this connection, I would like to mention the names of two very motivated students of our institute Veerender and Alok, who sort of kept on pushing Susham and me to interact with people from the industry and defence. I also remember taking the risk of missing the train to meet Soumita, who is very actively working in the area of social issues.

I have always remembered that my father had told me how he had worked hard to study. He used to wake up early in the morning, light a lantern and study. When the sun rose, daily household chores were handed to him. It must have been very difficult to live along with these chores then, as the economic conditions were not pretty favourable then. He had always tried to give his two sons the best of the education possible and that he could afford, while he never compromised upon his principles. During the riots of 1984, he played an active role in saving one of our neighbours. I have always been very proud of my father for his standards regarding work and society. Unfortunately, on the fourth day of August in 2009, I helplessly saw the “Royal Bengal Tiger” succumb to his conditions of a severe kidney failure. My father must have loved me very much, for he still appears in my dreams, smiling, hale and hearty, and indirectly inspiring me.

Shortly after my father's death, my mother suffered a silent cardiac attack. With all the might possible, we brothers prayed for her health, while we planned to shift from our home town, Jabalpur. Had it not been for the support from S. K. Bannerjee, Mr. K. Mukherjee and Raju Bhaiyaa, we would have been reeling under severe pressure. The month of August was further unfortunate as my mother's uncle also passed away after falling down and staying two days in the hospital at Kolkata. In this condition, it became severely difficult for us to communicate about my father's death and mother's ill health to my maternal grandfather. It still is.

Dr. Bharat Lohani and Professor Onkar Dikshit, help me get back to my feet after these incidents. Had it not been for their kind words, I would have been still having the brutal flashbacks.

This year, I got back in touch with many of my schoolmates. I was particularly getting jealous of my younger brother owing to the advantage, in terms of technology, he had in keeping up with his peer group. It was a nice experience chatting with old friends with the same vengeance as in school days, albeit with a better sense of humour.

I have had many good news this year as well. Moumita and Susham had a baby in the month of August. Shweta and Ray Mitten are expecting their baby sometime soon in 2010. The same is the case with Nathalie and Roger Goodall, from the Goodall family with whom I had the chance to stay while I was in France, and have kept in touch with me.

My research colleagues from the institute and group friends Nirmali Goswami and Bhavna Bhalla got their respective appointments as teachers. It has always been nice to chat, argue and quarrel on specific points on areas of common interest with these people. I wish them a very fruitful career ahead.

The morning of the first day in this year was cloudy, foggy and cold. However, as the sun rises further in the sky and the sunshine, smiles and warmth spread, I wish you all the best for your journey through this year. Times would be peaceful, sometimes they might be turbulent as well, but I wish that you find God with you always by your side.

2008: The year of the Good People

It is quite rare, when all the good people meet you in a year of time and when one feels that he is a part of a divine conspiracy when all the tides are turning against him.

The year began with preparations for a short term GIS workshop for the officers from Archaeological Survey of India. For more than a week, we interacted with people from that organisation who wanted to make a difference in presenting the vast repository of Indian heritage to the world. Young or old, age did not seem to deter them away either from their determination or their goal.

An international school for training experts in the asian region on my research area was next in line. Getting slides ready, preparation of course material, were all being done simultaneously. Two of the eminent experts in this field namely Professor Emmanuel Baltsavias and Dr. Norbert Pfeifer were also present in this workshop as ressource persons. Our group made a consolidated effort in carrying the flag of the institute forward. In this connection, I met Gautam after 5 years, who is one of my best research colleagues in the field of Geoinformatics. I also happened to meet Dr. Rashi Agarwal, Head of the Department, UIET, CSJM Kanpur, who became interested in the domain of LiDAR technology after this workshop and interacting with the GI Group.

Though being saved from the brunt of summer in Kanpur, I had to move to south India for a long time following a personal crisis. While my supervisor Dr. Bharat Lohani, was compassionate and empathised with the situation, Dr. Onkar Dikshit and Dr. Ashu Jain provided emotional support as well as helped with the institutional formalities. Rakesh Mishra was kind hearted to recharge my mobile everytime I needed it.

I met Dr. Nagarajan, one of the eminent scientists of India, and his wife Mrs Mangala Nagarajan at Kalpakkam who along with the cooperation of Dr. Sivaraman, Mr. Venkatesh and equally exuberant youth like Prashant, Hiren, Kumaresan, Madhavan, Swati helped and made me smile through the period of my crisis. In fact if I have to list out the number of people who helped me, perhaps I would end up writing a number of pages. Ms Seema Deogam, one of my classmates during my stay at Indian Institute of Remote Sensing, Dehradun, often called me up and calmed me down.

My father dislocated his wrist and damaged his knee cap at the same time in the month of August while I was at Chennai. My mother had to take lead in helping the family handle cope up with the crisis. Mr Venkat, who is one of our former neighbours at Jabalpur and Sriraj Nair, one of my younger brother's classmates took turns to help my father at the hospital. It was too bad that all this had to happen just at the time when my father had to retire from his long service to the Indian government.

The month of October, with the grace of God, saw me relieved from the crisis and I finally returned to Kanpur. It took more than a month to settle down back into the environment and at the same time, I made good friends like Bhavna Bhalla and Saurabh who were part of the counselling service team. The « chemical canteen » often saw me discussing PhD research with them.

Amandine, our french teacher last year, and I became friends too. At the same time she chose to come back to India and take classes at NIT Warangal. Eugenie has found her « dieu italien » and is happily leading a new life. Sadly, Clementine and Kate, were caught amidst the firing in Mumbai and hurt themselves badly. Yet, Clementine plans to come back to India to complete her assignment.

As the year ends, and I look back at the events that passed through the year, my belief becomes stronger that God exists and however hard the situation be, He makes sure that the believers in Him are happy. I have, lately thus, started studying the religion.

I wish you Merry Christmas, and a Happy New Year ahead.

Feminism vs. Pornography: An amateurish look on contemporary feminine politics

Sociological scholars have termed feminism and politics in the western context as too ambiguous and difficult to define. A very crude definition of feminism could be “The recognition that, virtually across time and place, men and women are unequal in the power that they have, either in the society or over their own lives, and the corollary belief that men and women should be equal; the belief that knowledge has been written about by and for men and the corollary belief that all school of knowledge be re-examined and understood to reveal the extent to which they ignore or distort gender” [1].

Since the beginning of the concept of Feminism in the early 17th century, it has undergone major changes in its philosophy. The first wave dealt with the voting rights of women, the second wave with the inequalities of laws and culture, and the third wave was the continuation of the second wave and deals with the perceived failures of the second wave as well. Feminists often differ in opinion over the sources of inequality, how to attain equality, and the extent to which gender and gender-based identities should be questioned and critiqued. Modern feminist political activists commonly campaign for a woman's right to bodily integrity and autonomy on matters such as reproductive rights, including the right to abortion, access to contraception and quality prenatal care; for protection from domestic violence; against sexual harassment and rape; for workplace rights, including maternity leave and equal pay; and against other forms of discrimination.

As described in Encyclopaedia Brittanica, the word pornography is derived from Greek words pornè (prostitute) and graphein (to write). Thus, pornography literally means any piece of work which describes the lifestyle and trade of prostitutes. It is to be added that by definition, pornographic works have no sense of aesthetics or art. On the other hand, erotica has been described in literature and dictionaries as more acceptable and egalitarian and is also considered to be artistic while causing sexual arousal in parallel. Sociological literature available in print and on web since the last decade of the previous century indicate that radical feminists have been discussing on the effects of pornographic literature on society in general and women in particular [1,2,3]. Kathleen Berry reiterates that “pornography no longer describes only the sexual activities between prostitutes and their customers. Sexual liberation has brought into the home many of the bizarre sexual activities that men have demanded of prostitutes. Pornography depicts not just what one can do with a whore but with one's lover, one's wife and even one's daughter. Through pornography, time honoured distinction of the society are now blurring and the gap is quickly closing between love and violence, madonnas and whores.”[4].

The feminist theory of pornography is derived from the feminist theory of sexuality; pornography reflects and reinforces the subordinating nature of male sexuality and power. More radical feminists construe male sexuality as predominantly, or even totally, subordinating, whereas less radical feminists draw distinctions between humanistic (egalitarian) and non-humanistic (subordinating) male sexuality as well violent and non-violent erotic variations. It is due to this duality of the understanding of feminism that events like sexual harassment at the workplace, pornography etc. have been a cause of prime concern for men as well women personally as well as politically.

Let us look at some scenarios/examples where we should agree with the feminists [5].

1. A teen sex movie clip wherein an eighteen year old Russian girl in the best of her clothing turns up for chatting up with two men. The men in turn use their camera to film her body and taking the brief chance to feel and play with the girl's twin assets. Subsequently, the other man undresses the girl, and then the two take turns in gratifying themselves almost simultaneously. While this description and the enactment of the scene would have aroused most of the men, it is to be noted that there was no feeling of pleasure on the face of the girl. I felt as if she was forced to be a part of the clip and as if she was silently crying inside herself while letting the two men enjoy her body.
   
   This film does many things together. It signifies that the teenage girl (from Russia) is of loose character or rather a prostitute, it objectifies the girl and also it could give a signal to the viewer that Russian girls are of similar nature. It is to be mentioned here that the same scenario is replayed in many clips wherein emotions and bodies of females from countries other the particular country where the clip was filmed, were played with. This could rather conclude that the females from the rest of the world are whores while that certain country enjoys.
   
   
2. A woman enters a bar and sees a man with a high class SLR camera, whose arms are full of tattoos. She asks the barman for a drink and some snacks and tries to chat with the man. The man however misbehaves with her and does not talk with her properly. A few minutes later the man leaves the bar. Another few minutes later, we see the girl at the man's place. The man asks the girl for an explanation as to why she was following him. She replies that she found the man attractive. A few minutes later we see that the woman is tied up, bound, gagged and naked. The man is enjoying himself hitting the woman as well as inserting objects into her private parts, while the woman shouts with a mix of pain and pleasure.
   
   This film indicates that women love pain. The stronger the man, the more the pain, the more the pleasure. This film clip could aggravate the cause of rape in the society forcing psycho criminals to believe what they saw in the clips. It could also indicate that sporting tattoos and earrings were cool whereas normally most of us would not find such a person attractive.

The effect of pornography on the lives of people raise many eyebrows. A friend of my acquaintance who lived in and loved India, was married to a non-resident Indian male. The NRI forced his wife to watch pornography, forced her to pose nude for the camera while clicking many indecent photographs of hers and further, he drew ultimate sexual pleasure in beating up the woman, causing permanent physical injury to her backbone. Although this is only a single instance in my knowledge, the sexual frustration of males must have caused similar troubles and problems everywhere. Mackinnon, like many other radical feminists maintains that pornography is harmful in itself, not only because it may trigger specific sexual violence or harmful attitudes; pornography also constitutes an ideal instrument of male domination that generates and reinforces subordination and discrimination against women in a broader systemic sense. [2]

“Sex” as a topic for discussion is considered as a taboo in India. Let us digress a bit and have a look on the outlook of the common Indian woman towards sex and related discussions. According to my survey made over the last few years on women, 98% of the internet chats seeking information on sexuality were responded with “Chhee! Kitni gandi baatein karte ho! Saare mard ek jaise hote hai (Gosh! What filthy talk! All males are equal!)”. But what does that mean? Don't women like the concept of sex? Or is it that the concept of sex is such a taboo in our country, that talking or discussing about sexuality would label women as whores? It is probably the third opinion which moves in everybody's minds. However, it was observed that if the words were “well framed”, the women would readily respond to the questions. This is well confirmed by a testimonial of a girl in Orkut, “...she likes adult jokes but only when presented in a nice way ...”

The curiosity of women towards sex, sexuality as well as pornography can be well established by evidences of my internet chats with several girls in their early twenties (assuming that they were females with whom I chatted). Some accepted the fact that they have watched pornographic clips and enjoyed self gratification whereas some just bypassed the question as if they did not read the sentence at all.

Suddhasheel Ghosh [6] graphically illustrates the fact with concrete examples that how women try to take personal and undue advantage of situations and use men. They also use their assets and other skill sets like tears, cajoling and scolding to the fullest advantage. For example one of my friends was on the train from Ranchi to Delhi. The train was late by 4 hours and it was midnight when the train halted at a remote station. A couple of rogue engineering college students started drumming the body of the train and woke everyone up. A newly married couple, who appeared to be college students as well, got inside the train along with lot of baggage. They were on the side seats. At half an hour past midnight they started discussing the administration of Windows XP without any concern for the other passengers. At around one o'clock, they thought that they should retire to the berths and hence started pushing their baggages under other people's seats except their own. My friend seriously objected to this. The girl approached my friend, started shouting at him and caught hold of his hand. My friend retorted by twisting her finger. The accompanying passengers started criticising the female for her indecent behaviour. The girl came up with her crocodile tears. In the morning, my friend was pulled out of the train at Allahabad station and beaten up for giving a bad name to the girl. On hearing the story and thinking about it again and again I have not been able to conclude as to whose fault it was inside the train. Many a female would sympathise with the girl, I certainly do not.

Although I agree to the fact that pornography is demeaning to women to a considerable degree, it does not necessarily categorise the male species appreciating pornography as devoid of humane qualities However, hardcore feminists have appeared to take political advantage of this. As mentioned earlier, they have labelled the male sexuality as subordinating. Males can always opine that actresses in the porn industry are highly paid, well respected and therefore their conscience is clear. It however seems here that the context in which the feminists argue, is more biblical (watching is as good as endorsing it!). They would also add that working in a porn industry may have been the last choice for the actors.

It isn't very surprising to observe that feminists have not been able to establish unanimity over the possibility of achieving equal sexual relations. The more radical the theory, the less sanguine the assessment. According to Andrea Dworkin, “terror issues from the male, illuminates his essential nature and his basic purpose.”[2] However radical the feminists may turn out, they have not been able to establish basic guidelines on having equal sexual relationships. As a result, women would continue to take advantage of men politically and personally as the need arises thus labelling men as dominating physically and sexually. We men, yes the poor men, would continue to suffer the brunt of radical feminists along with the heat of global warming.

1. Arneil, Barbara (1999), Politics and Feminism: An introduction, Blackwell Publishing
2. Downs, Donald Alexander (1989), The new politics of pornography, University of Chicago Press
3. Juffer, Jane (1998), At home with pornography: Women, Sex and everyday life, NYU Press
4. Berry, Kathleen (1984), Female sexual slavery, NYU Press.
5. Slade, Joseph W. (2000), Pornography and sexual representation: A reference guide, Greenwood Publishing Group
6. Ghosh, Suddhasheel (2007), Women's liberty: Is it how we think about it – I?, http://shudh.blogspot.com/2007/08/womens-liberty-is-it-how-we-think-about.html
   

An Inspirational 2007

With 2007, going away and the new year arriving, I am keen to look back at things that I have learned and achieved. It would also be important to look at the contributions of people to my life and people who have inspired me to march ahead this year, in spite of the difficulties.

The month of January found me in Hyderabad at the Map World Forum, a group to showcase the latest developments in the field of Geoinformatics, be it in terms of technology or research. I did make a few friends and got back in touch with Sonal and her husband Mrityunjay, Dr. Parth Sarathi Roy and Harish Karnatak. Sonal and I were colleagues in 2000 and it was nice to see her seven years later. I also met Shubha, her little kid and she was quite friendly after the initial shyness which every child shows after encountering a stranger. I also had a visit to Harish's residence only to find out that he was getting ready to settle into a blissful married life. I could not however visit Dr. Roy and his family as I was getting late for the departure back to Kanpur. It was nice to catch up with old friends and get back to the old times when we worked, laughed, quarrelled and discussed together.

I completed my second year of French lessons this year. Thanks to Eugénie Duthoit, she made it quite comfortable for us to learn advanced French. She also inspired us to go ahead for DELF and DALF and also offered to train us for the same. Eugénie silently went back to France via Delhi in the wee hours of the morning one day. I had purchased a gift for her, but was not able to hand it over to her. Later, I found her as a good person discussing life on the internet over chat (We changed from vous to tu). Eugénie has also written a blog describing her experiences on her visit to India.

My supervisor Dr. Bharat Lohani has kept on pushing me for performance throughout this year. With his support I registered my name for a conference in Germany. It was to be my first international conference. I took this chance to meet the scientists and researchers working in my direction of research and gained from their experiences. Interestingly Dr. Lohani went on to attend other conferences in Austria and Switzerland and those papers won prizes.

Prof. Onkar Dikshit has been quite supportive for all the years that I have stayed at IIT Kanpur. In fact, when I took up the course Engineering Drawing for my Teaching Assistantship, he supplied me with study and support material for the programme. Although time consuming, this was one of the best Teaching Assistantship experiences I had in IIT Kanpur. In addition to the learning I had, I also got the time to interact professionally with Dr. Amit Prashant and Dr. Sarvesh Chandra.

I took up to learning German in the new semester. Although quite different from French, I am having a nice time learning it owing to my classmates whom I tease often during the class. This semester also saw Eugénie revisiting India for bidding a goodbye to her friends. She also introduced me to Amandine Almarcha, a sweet, smiling, chirpy and crazy French girl, who is here to teach advanced French. On every weekend, Amandine, I and some of our earlier classmates of the French language, meet over a cup of tea and a few snacks to discuss French culture, politics and practices.

In the month of November, I had a visit to Ahmedabad for another conference on the visualization of geographic data. In the process I had the opportunity to taste real Gujarati food at Rajwadu. Based on a theme of an original Gujarati mansion, the experience was full with Gujarati cuisine and music. Home made butter, missi roti and the other mithais still make my mouth water. It was also an opportunity to meet people who worked earlier at Indian Institute of Remote Sensing, Dehradun and catch up again with the old times.

This December, I got a mail from Mrs. and Mr. GOODALL (people whom I stayed with as a paying guest at St. Jean de Brayé at 2003) regarding their visit in February 2008 to the north-western parts of India. I do feel quite excited and maybe we could meet sometime.

Culturally, this year was very fruitful. We had a delight watching and listening to people to the likes of Ustad Abdul Rashid Khan (99 yrs old!), Guru Jayarama Rao and Vanashree Rao, Ms Sunanda Sharma, Pt Biswajit Chowdhury and Mrs Shubha Mudgal, with the help of a group called SPIC-MACAY (Society for the Promotion of Indian Classical Music and Culture Amongst Youth).

Lastly, this was also a year for goodbyes. My dida (naani) left this world for the heavenly abode. She was in bed for long and had suffered a lot during her lifetime owing to her illness. Naani loved me a lot. But I hope she has reached the heavenly abode and is in no more pain. Baramaima's elder brother left this world too. I bid goodbyes to people as well, and decided to march ahead, looking for new horizons.

Over and all, this year was inspirational and I am here looking ahead for the sun to arise on the morning of the new year.

A merry Christmas and a happy new year, 2008 to all!

Suddhasheel GHOSH